A Bad Habit--*

Im always that tough one.

The petite chick with advice like

"Fuck niggas ; you don't need him anyways."

Yes, small frame but my talk is mean.

And I got a stuborn streak inherited

From a generation of women

Who honestly didn't give a shit.

So

I

Lose.

The battle with myself when I say its ok to cry

Cuz I've strategically trained my eyes

To lock tears behind steel bars.

And

I

Chose.

To be a hard rock, ms. hill told me I was a gem,

I shoulda listened then.

Cuz now my heart stays iced over

Cold, Bitter, AND unapologetic.

When disrespect presents itself, 

Emotions ; disabled.

Then

I

Fuse

Together the pieces broken with pride and glue.

I'm that chick.

The one with clenched fists

And tight grips,

The loud voice and quiet atmosphere.

My heart lives in solitude 

And

I

Refuse

To be unhappy.

But sometimes I just wanna be

Vulnerable.

--tianamonique.

quickthought*

He creates empires inbetween
Hello's and Goodbyes.
His name rests easy on the tip of my tounge,
Knowing that god's eye's rest in the flash of his smile.
I could live in his arms forever.
I think I might.

I dare you to try
To break this.

-tictac.

FOR THEE RECORD*

I would like to say that I am naïve.
I'd love to pretend that I don’t see
Your secret codes.
I know your methods.
And I know when I leave
My names is found
In a pile of dirt in the corner
And my existence
Doesn’t matter.
Or maybe it does when
Convient for you.
I would love to say I didn’t see
Her name pop up.
I would love to say
This was all just a misunderstanding
Maybe even coincidence.
But I don't think it is accurate to call it coincidence
If it happens all the time..
I digress.
I bite my tounge till it
Stings and the blood tastes
Salty.
I clench my teeth,
Roll over and pretend like im sleep.
I don't want to know or see.
But I do.
I really really do.

&& I hope when you wake up, you get caught in your tears and reality smacks you till you fall back asleep.

--tianamonique.

AH CHRISTMAS =]

Must say was quite successful! =]
Actually ; it was absolutely perfect.
Familia was wonderful!
BOY was wonderful. [AS ALWAAYS]
BOYS FAMILIA was wonderful!!

all around wonderful day! =]

--ima happy camper && one luckyy chick.

Hope yours was wonderful as well*

tianamonique.

btw: ihavethebestboyever*
mmhmmm.