Its like..
All I want to do is fall asleep
Like I used to.
When the sound of your breath
Hitting the back of my neck used to
Hum me into the sweetest of dreams
And I just want to wake up
Like I used to.
With the morning sun
Hitting the top of your eyelids
Creating shadows of your eyelashes
Onto my cheeks.
And I want to walk like I used to.
When I proudly strolled next to your
Brilliance
Lucky to even to be in your presence.
I want to sing like I used to.
But somehow you stole my voice.
Or maybe it just disappeared after you left.
Or maybe it's still here, I just haven't realized it yet.
I don't know.
And that scares me.
Afraid of forever being lost in this state of not knowing
Maybe i'm not even lost..
Maybe I just haven't been found.
Its like..
I'm trying to forget everything.
But remembering nothing.
And feeling something that I used to know
But anything numb's me.
So I intoxicate the veins
And poison the brains
And kill the pains.
Because falling out of love is insane.
And I blame
You.
It's like…
I'm holding hands with yesterday
Trying to pretend like it's beautiful.
Closing my eyes and seeing all
The good scene's play and skipping all the
Part's where we slammed doors,
And killed each other's souls
You remember .
The way the lies crept
Underneath carpets
Into the bedsheets
Where we sinned night after night
Serpents with bright red apples
We ate them without shame
I blame you.
For everything.
And sometimes I feel bad about it
But it's like…
My heart breaks everyday.
And I'm running out of pieces to give away.
