We met in shallow waters.
Under silly circumstances.
Swimming was never an option,
But floating was effortless
In your rivers, and streams.
I drank from your thoughts
And lived off of the idea of love.
I jumped off diving boards to reach you.
Penetrating through currents
I knew my small frame could not handle
But your face
Always kept my heart at a steady pace
Lacing rocks with your smile,
Until you were a blur.
A melody that I held my breath for
You were the air that I always ran out of.
Gasping for a piece of sanity.
Raising my head above water
Only to find out that I
Was still drowning in your memory.
We hit rock bottom.
Plummeted to the deep end.
You never taught me how to swim.
I attempted but failed.
Cold, I shivered my way through love
Pretended you were the beach,
I dreamed of.
Palm trees and coconuts and open blue skies.
Seas painted with
Picassos's brush; The rush of waves
Against our skin.
I imagined sand between my fingers
And you holding shells up to my ears
Asking if I could hear the ocean yet.
That if we could just make it.
If we could surf the waves,
If we could survive the currents,
We would come out alive
And in love.
But instead; I bled.
And you were the shark.
And you bit me till I fell apart.
Nothing left but bruises and
Half a heart.
So i'm back at the start.
In these shallows waters.
Too afraid of the deep end;
Because I was never taught how to swim.
Catching my breath from the currents
That rocked me to sleep.
Here I am; heart locked
Sitting with my feet dangling from the dock.
Skimming emerald rocks,
Tears flooding as I watch
You fade away; because we got lost.
And Im on a mission to find me again,
So as we say farewell my friend.
I say hello to me at the bayou.