I'm a soldier.
Salute me or get murdered.
Never cross enemies lines
Is what I told her .
Respect my queendom
If you want to keep your freedom,
I have this feeling of
Authority and i'm not sure where it came from,
But I feel obliged to keep
My heart in tact; beware of attack.
Thoughts hijacked by mistaken allies.
Forsaken lies; I will not compromise.
I see the boys and I hear the cries
They try too hard to hide.
But I told you.
I'm no longer your prisoner.
I'm the commander.
You demanded her; A battle I let myself lose.
But you lost when I let you choose.
Sing me your blues as I fall asleep
Next to someone new.
I've been waiting for the day for you to realize
The magnitude of what you put me through.
But it's time to move.
Running through the cluster of
Broken promises, and swallowing words that are stained
On the back of my throat.
I understand now that there was no remedy to be found,
Loving myself was the only antidote,
I coped well; considering all the lies these silent
Told and sold dreams with unraveling seams.
It's never as seems so be careful what it is you believe.
Fairy tales are fake stories, but I'm making real
Happily ever afters.
Capturing my laughter and bottling my smile
All the while fighting the demons that
Take over my silent nights, but this is a fight
I will not lose.
No more melancholy hues will linger around these walls.
Standing tall; suited up.
Shoe's shined and ready to regulate on those
Silencing the debate on whether not I'll make it.
Breaking through the curses,
I heard them.
They were whispers, but they crept
Up my neck and I could feel the chill
In their voices.
They used to speak so coldly.
I remember feeling so frozen from the harsh
Words of their winter tongues, but i've hung
Those up to dry in my spring like gardens.
What you think is hardly true, love.
I used to live freely, without rules, love.
Until you started creating them, impossible to
I tried to; you watched me.
I failed you and i'm sorry.
But now i'm sergeant.
Taking commands from no man.
Forgetting the plots and the remedies
Taking shots at the enemies.
From now on, i'm defending me.
Never surrendering my heart
For someone who will ignore it.
No more white flags, this is war.
And i'm ready.
With my scars drawn and
My wounds open.
This is not my first battle, nor will it be my last.
But I have an army behind me.
The sunken soldiers, the beaten
Prisoners, the wounded souls,
The bloodied victims.
Here we come, murdering those
In our way of the sun.
I've had enough.
I'm tough, but this road has been rough.
And I deserve honors and medals.
So ad ease, soldier.
I'll do this with ease, soldier.
Watch me do as I please, soldier.
And maybe one day you'll become an ally,
Till then, let the battles rise.
Love, Tiana Monique