Friday, May 11, 2012

RAH. [The Unanswered Questions]

The words evaporated into thin air
Like magic
Disappeared before I could even speak them
I wanted to cry
But you walked away
Before I could say goodbye
That was the moment time stopped
And the clouds shed tears
And all the flowers wilted
And the winds stopped breathing
It was the day thatlove stopped believing.
You were the chosen one,
Didn't you know that?
Didn't you know you were a hero?
How many hearts depended on you..
How many hearts you broke.
You failed.
Not only me, but us.
Put trust in your hands
And you betrayed it by
Washing them in dirt
Forgetting your purpose
You were supposed to return
Supposed to come back for me,
And don't you know I waited?
How many full moons I counted in your absence.
How many men tried to fill your shoes,
Pretending to be you.
With their silver armour blinding the truth.
And their fabricated war stories.
But their eyes always lied
And their hands didn't feel the same folded in mine.
I know we didn't have a fairytale,
And I wasn't expecting a happily ever after,
But we had history love,
Don't you remember?
I couldn't have made up
All those nights spent
Singing revolutions into
Blank skies.
Or the kisses shared inbetween
Provacative conversations,
Or smiles sent across
Oceans
Spread vastly between us.
I know it was not a dream.
And I want to remember you the same.
As the same man in the frame,
But my how we've both changed.
It's strange.
I always thought that looking back
Would make me remember,
But all it ever does now
Is make me want to forget.
Because we have scars now that cannot be replaced
And we have wounds that can
Never be erased.
We've both seen how this ends,
And it aches.
This is what happens when heart's break.
And you never offered to pick up the pieces,
Did you my love?
You were busy.
Preoccupied with the battles your were facing
In your own world.
I tried to make excuses for you, you know.
Change my number and
Told people that you just couldn't reach me.
I would say that you were coming back,
Any day.
Any minute.
Any second
And they would nod their heads knowing
That I was holding in hard tears in the
Back of my throat
Knowing that my hopes were useless,
Because everyone knew besides me,
That you would turn into nothing more
Than a memory.
And now look at us.
Two chapters that are no longer
In the same book,
Binded by words written in two different languages.
And I don't understand you anymore.
Your dialect's transformed.
Conformed to the male ego,
You were never satisfied, were you?
And it wasn't that I didn't have the beauty,
And it wasn't that I wasn't smart enough,
And it wasn't that we didn't have the chemistry,
You were just lost.
And me thinking I was your destination
Is where the road stopped.
You traveled distances in search of your happiness,
When in reality,
I could have shown you the way,
If you would've just let me,
But you went astray,
And found yourself a home in the unknown.
A place where I cannot follow.
A place where my name is not relevant,
A place where you are not mine.
But I hope someday,
In another life maybe,
You remember your way back to forever,
Because we almost had it this time,
Didn't we?

Love, Me.

1 comment:

Kiana said...

OOOOOweeeeee this piece is.....it just...IS. Love it!