Tuesday, December 30, 2008

A Bad Habit--*

Im always that tough one.
The petite chick with advice like
"Fuck niggas ; you don't need him anyways."
Yes, small frame but my talk is mean.
And I got a stuborn streak inherited
From a generation of women
Who honestly didn't give a shit.
So
I
Lose.
The battle with myself when I say its ok to cry
Cuz I've strategically trained my eyes
To lock tears behind steel bars.
And
I
Chose.
To be a hard rock, ms. hill told me I was a gem,
I shoulda listened then.
Cuz now my heart stays iced over
Cold, Bitter, AND unapologetic.
When disrespect presents itself, 
Emotions ; disabled.
Then
I
Fuse
Together the pieces broken with pride and glue.
I'm that chick.
The one with clenched fists
And tight grips,
The loud voice and quiet atmosphere.
My heart lives in solitude 
And
I
Refuse
To be unhappy.

But sometimes I just wanna be
Vulnerable.

--tianamonique.

10 comments:

Reggie said...

Girl....I love this!!!:)

tianam0nique.--* said...

Thank Yuuu =]

ariele said...

last line es bueno.

oh and exvarsity cheer capitannnn
so i specialize in cheer
[=

nikkiblanco said...

i really really love your poetry!

nikkiblanco said...

send me an email!!!!!
nikki@honeyandvinegar.com

and then delete this message! lol

I am giving away 5 copies of my book for the new year and I would love to send you one... I love reading your poetry and would love for you to read mine!

Maybe it will inspire you to write YOUR book!

Ashley Outrageous said...

loveee it! like every other piece of yours! have a safe happy new years mama! xo

CHIC REPORTER said...

very nice...kinda reminds me of the old me...nicely done

the MRS. said...

damn deeeeeeeeeeeep, i like that one

Social Disaster said...

That was hot. I think it is brave to express love to others but it is also a challenge to expess that love because there are so many people wanting to take advantage.

Melody.Darlene said...

oooh my!! girrrrrrrl! that is me exactly!! u phrased that soooo right! yes girl YES!